The end of all things to come...

we'll see what happens...

will this be the end of me? fortunate if the end means a new beginning for me. hoping for a new something. i've had it with this sick, monotonous life of mine. it has been a routine, really. no more "spice", if you get what i mean.

this is the part where i usually clamor for a vacation at a remote place, probably at a beach, under coconut trees, feeling the ocean breeze gently caressing my face... (choir singing). or maybe swinging on a hammock, sharing it with someone special (wishful thinking is not a crime!), enjoying every second with each other... ok that's it. i've become delirious.

reason: i've slept for only a total of 9 hours for the past three days. big whoop! that's 9 ouf of 72. do the math, is that even normal? i think if i keep on going like this, i'll be a good candidate for the lead role in machinist 2. hahaha... ever seen that movie?

ok, back to the beach wish. i keep on thinking about that place where the movie "the beach" was filmed. it'd be nice if i could go there. it'd be even nice if someone would go with me hehehe... all expense paid trip, on me. ok here we go again. first of all, where in this green earth would i find the money (legally that is)? my job is sooo hard, and the compensation's not that great. at this rate, i'd be too old enough to enjoy the trip. there's no charge to hope... maybe i'll look inside pandora's box and see if it's still there.

I NEED A BREAK!

in two month's time, i'll be receiving a new set of leave credits from work. i'm hoping, hoping and crossing my fingers and toes that i can scrounge up enough green stuff to make this wish push through, no lamp rubbing action this time. down aladdin! i pray that i'll have somebody to spend it with too... tralalalala...

ok, that's it it for now i guess... now i'm wondering... what has the title have to do with the contents of this entry? must've been wasted sleepwise, i'm not even sure if this post makes some sense.

time for me to catch up on some much needed sleep. like i said, sleep brings relief for me. i'm looking forward to a new day, a new beginning, and a new chance in this swirling black hole of doom, also known as my life's depression. do i need anti depressants? maybe i'll swing by my company's doctor's clinic and have a nice looooong chat with her.

carpe noctem for now.